Realize that if you really want to enjoy programming it will require time and effort to dig in and learn. If tutorials won't work for you, you might want to consider whether or not this is for you, as that is typically how many people learn the language. It's good that you don't want to copy/paste stuff to get a game going quickly, but the idea is that copying/pasting is not all you do; it is just the start. Looking at code from others is a great help if you take the time to see what they are doing and what they are accomplishing with it.
An alternative is to buy a book and learn from it. Here is one I used years ago and it was a big help to me. It might work for you:
So many games to code.....so little time.