Hey guys,
Well, I woke up just 3 hours after I went to sleep and I noticed that people have repeatedly taken advantage of me or believing I am some pushover.
I woke up to find out that my roommate is causing me alot of trouble on my second day of knowing him. I wake up to discover that my entire desk and floor is wet with urine (my mouse pad and mouse are damaged with the liquid). I know he was a obsessed alcoholic from day 1, since he and his friends had a drinking party at our apartment. It didn't bother me much then, as long as I didn't get bothered. However, that is not lasting very long.
Here I am, sitting in front of my laptop, cleaning his urine due to his incapability to realize this current reality from over consumption of alcohol.
I've had a problem with my first roommate on my first year of college too. He was a gang member who shoplifted a ton of rubbish he didn't need, and never once cared about how loud he was being at 2 in the morning, or how he was using my property when I wasn't around. I've gotten the feeling people are really pushing me around in my life, and I sometimes actually want to kill these people for what they have done to my life. And I'm not kidding, I really want to kill these people. It might seem like a stretch to most people, but after what I've gone through I really don't see it a surprise for me to go to Juvi after next week.
I dunno, I thought this thread would be a way for me to project my current feelings, though if you guys have any advice I could take, that'd help me alot at the moment. I'm kinda sick of people pushing me around in my life, I just really want to end it. And please no stupid posts, I'm looking for genuine help at the moment.
