Quote: "Well, the important thing is that even in failure we grow, you have and will."
Whoops, didn't see your post, Ortu. Yeah, it's definitely been a learning experience... both gaining mod status and losing it.
Quote: "Trying to evenly balance and keep a foot in both worlds rarely works out well in the end."
I don't see why that is. It
should be easy to keep that balance...
I think that in the end, I was trying to maintain that balance by effectively reducing the apparent authority I had. It would seem that didn't work, so I'll try something else next time!
Quote: "The demotion seems really weird to me, sure, you did somewhat abuse your power and yea, you did advertise unity 4 but it was a single instance and something you would probably have stopped doing if you knew it wasn't allowed. Demoting a mod as soon as they do something unallowed just gives you a new less experienced mod to fill that spot. It would have been a diffirent thing if you knew about the rule or if you did this kind of stuff regularly."
Apparently it was also because I stood up so strongly for TheComet. The other mods all seemed to think we were friends or something (and I mean we
are kind of, but not outside these forums), when in reality I was just trying very hard to make sure TheComet wasn't being punished for something he hadn't done. The thing is, I've been in very similar situations, where someone thinks you've done something wrong but you can't prove you didn't for so long that when you finally
do prove it, they're so annoyed and irritated by you that they no longer care and won't change their mind. It's horrible. Their view of you is so aversely affected by what they
think you did that they refuse to listen when you try to prove you didn't do it.
Quote: "Have not other mods also made silly mistakes, and yet were not instantly demoted without warning or second chance?"
I get the feeling that most of the mods either became mods back when TGC was young and it was quite difficult to do the wrong thing (and they were probably much more forgiving back then) or they were already older ("experienced") people and just
happened to know what TGC expects of you. I'm probably the first new mod who's also really young, so when I made a mistake (or a couple, apparently) they didn't have any experience in handling me and were forced to chuck me out. Is that fair? No, I don't think so. Am I going to fight it? No, not right now. I've had a stressful enough day as it is with losing mod status; I'm going to just ignore it for a little while and let everything (including my emotions) settle down and THEN, maybe, push for a better system.
Just FYI: When you first become a mod, there's no instructions, guidance or training. It's just, "Here's you mod badge, off you go!" Sure, you can ask the other mods and they're perfectly happy to help out (BiggAdd especially!
), but there's no way whatsoever of knowing if you're doing your job right.
Quote: "Whenever I've seen Unity/UDK mentioned here people have always been quick to point out that "they are not competing with tgc products, they are completely different things", which made sense because I'm not sure competing against those engines would end up very well."
+1
EDIT:
Quote: "I had to have a serious word with one of the developers the other day, and normally we would be quite friendly and have a good laugh and a chat, and that was very difficult for me to sit him down and discuss his short comings."
That's how I expect it to be! Most of the time you consider yourselves equals, except that those under you must respect you and you must be firm when necessary. Obviously in real life it's not that simple (if you get too friendly with people they might be hurt when you are forced to firm with them) but in general I thought I was succeeding pretty well at this.
Ok here's an idea: Did anyone else here think I was failing at being in a position of power? If so, how and why? Be honest. Remember, I'm pretty unoffendable. I'll either defend my position if I think you're wrong or I'll learn from what you say
Quote: "You can still be yourself, but you need to adapt a little!"
Did I not adapt enough, or did I simply fail at a representing TGC? Because I'm starting to realise exactly why I was demoted. It wasn't because I was failing a being a mod generally (TheComet is a separate issue - I was standing up for him because justice was failing; I would have done the same for anyone, even people I didn't like), I was demoted because I didn't represent TGC well. First of all, I didn't know I was supposed to! It
does say in the AUP that we're just volunteer members of the public, does it not? That doesn't imply we're TGC representatives! Second, there's nothing in the AUP or board rules that says we can't talk about non-TGC products. I wasn't ignorant of the law, there WAS no law!
Quote: "Don't take it to heart Clonkex. You seem like a really nice guy, so don't let this change who you are"
I won't!
It'll change how I act in future positions of power, but not who I am
